The part of life

Feeling drained. Couldnt really sleep well last night. Knowingly Rach's going to have her operation to remove her teeth, worried me. Told her last night that I wont be going to the hospital as I had lesson at noon today. But before I prepared to tug myself neatly into bed, I thought I should go. If I dont, I'll just be as worried. But lesson. Its important. So I made a deal with the gods. If it rains in the night, I'll go to the hospital. If not, I will wake up promptly for school. Just before I closed my eyes, cold winds blew and reddish clouds gathered. See! Gods do answer calls. Rushed down to the hospital in the morning. Mad rush to make it just in time before Rach goes into the operation theatre. Hours later, what I saw was a frail lil girl lying on the bed. Never will I expect her to look like that. The tranquillizer made her weak. I guess everyone there was hoping to do something to make her feel better or rather to help her ease her pain. But strong she is. Still able to try her best to crack her jokes. Seriously, I do love her. Just like a lil sister. Despite a few hidcups, she's a magnificent person all round. All I hope now's that she will recover fully soon and to go ktv and haf fun together. Just imagine, its just a small operation and I'm already thinking 'what if' things were to be more serious and it falls on anyone of us. Will we regret not paying more attention and love to people around us when that person's healthy? Scary. Life's so frail and unpredictable.
Topic aside. Busy day tomorrow and for the whole of next week. ECR has to be confirmed lastest before noon and its the last weekend to buy my pants for formal wear. Next week will be a short but hectic week. I'll be leaving for a few days. Not for leisure of cos. Instead, for myself and importantly, my dad. Though I know couple of you guys might be reading this, I wont be disclosing any details of the duration. Not to be secretive, but rather I dont want to be disappointed. Witnessing scences of us being there for each other when one of us feels down, pleases me. Just as expected being my friends. But deep thinking made me realised things. I'm sort of expected when one needs a shoulder to lean on, but when I needed one, all I'll get is a wall. Been thinking about this for months, the only self-conclusion's that I feel, there's a big brother role to play. But recent events made me lose this faith lil by lil. Just treat it as I'm awaken by reality. There's a need to be selfish for one's survival. To be able to survive, then the chance to take care of others will appear. To leave without any word, is my only option to see a depature gate filled with unfamiliar faces. My mentality of what has been written has been set. If there are any kind words, I appreciate. If not, my love for everyone is still very much the same. I'll be good, so you must too! -vEn