Conversationaless and busy times ahead

Words that were exchanged, cant even make up a sentence. Thats how far distance is stretched.
Guess I'm weak in my communication skills to pertain a good topic. But somehow, I dont have such a prob with most people. Deep inside, I'm aware of the reason. Like an animal, I have my natural instincts.
Had a difficult time planning my schedule lately. Been thinking about it for the past few days. Its due time to get it confirmed soon. Time will be packed. Somethings will be sacrificed. Feeling sore about it but I guess, its part and parcel of life. Like what Bird said, six modules (exclamation) with eyes wide open, I know its mad. But I'm ready to be mad. Could feel how painful it was to mug so last minute last year. This year, probably starting early will lessen the pain. Oh, its times like these that I'll reminisce about Fang. Her gentle love and support seems to dazzle every worry away. Had never felt so safe before. Had there been no national service, would she still be beside at this hour while I'm typing this away. Life....
Holla! Its gonna rain soon. But I'm not gonna close the windows till it pours. With the windows closed, the room will just be like a vacuum. Hollow. Sis's gonna for an operation later. Scared I'l be if I'm her. Fret not sis, you'll have all the concern and love to guide you through.